I know it has been a while since I have written, but it is about time that I did. I have been trying to get my head together since I was released by Mistress. I have been trying to stay positive, but it has been hard. When I am at the Space it is not bad, but when I am alone, it is a different story. I get so depressed and don't even want to get out of bed or go out of the house. What makes it worse is I no longer have a one on one therapist, so can not discuss especially in group. Would be TMI and most of them would not understand or freak out.
So I keep most of it to myself and it makes my depression worse. But I made a decision today, I have to be strong! I can get through this! I will prove that I can be the strong independent slave that she wants me to be.
But I am not doing this for her! I am doing it for me, to be the beautiful strong lady that I transitioned into. One I can be proud of!!! So I am starting a strict schedule as of Monday morning, and I am not going to stray from it. I will post the link here in my blog as soon as I finish setting bit up. The schedule will help me work on my time management skills, which really needs improvement. I need to be able to do all assignments, whether they be personal, from school or from a friend, or when I get one, a mistress. And I need to be able to plan my time so I complete them all in a timely manner!
And my first assignment is to write in this blog every night before bedtime. To put in words, my feelings, thoughts, and plans. It will be a big help to go back to my days of DBT. So this is the first of my daily journals. I will also occasionally throw in a short story. My first one will be entered shortly.
So until tomorrow, Ciao!
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