This past two weeks have been enlightening. I have been sick, so while lying in bed, i got to do a lot of thinking. About me, my life,  my friends, and my future. I had a lot of inner discussions with my self, and realized where I made my mistakes. I realized where I need to make changes, it is how these changes will be made is what I am working on now. I need a strict training! So, It may sound strange. But I am going to be my own mistress, I am putting myself on a strict schedule, (It is on my Google Calendar which my two best friends  have access to.) 
I am giving myself assignments and deadlines. If I fail, I do not allow my self to play while at the space. If I succeed, I will give myself a reward, either a movie or sushi lunch or who knows. 
Tomorrow is my last day of relaxation, as the schedule starts on Tuesday morning. 
I have cleaning, writing and other assignments on my list of assignments. I just wish I had someone to throw in extra assignments every so often to see if I can figure out how to handle them, how to fit them in without ignoring other assignments. To be able to get them all done in a timely manner. 
I need to be able to handle what is thrown my way and prove I am capable of being the slave I truly am, and one that I can be proud of. It will take time, and when I do I hope  will I will get  another chance at being a slave to my best friend in the whole world!
As for my daily food diary I used to do, I think I may start that as well, as it will help me stick to a good dietetic regiment! I will start that next week, as I want to take things one day at a time!
So for now, I am off to watch some movies, and kill some zombies and then off to sleep!