I don't know why, but for the last three to four weeks, my
depression really has gotten the best of me. And it is bothering me that i give
into it. I have been doing so good for years, and now all of a sudden, bang
right in the head! For the record, I am bi-polar with anxiety disorder and
PTSD.
The problem is not when I am around people, when I am out and with people I am great. But when i am
home alone. I start to isolate and don't want to do anything except read and
sleep. TV even bores me! And I don't want to start isolating again, it is the
worse thing I can do. i am hoping the change in meds will help, just got
changed today, but it worries me.
I need to learn how to force myself to do things. Force
myself to get out of the house and not isolate! To not let my inner thoughts
control me! This is the first thing I have written in over two weeks. I love
writing, but just can't bring myself to do it.
But I am not a quitter, I am strong, and I will not let this
win over me! I will survive! Just please friends, bare with me.
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